Choice

Ah choice. The freedom to choose. The freedom to be your own man (or woman). The freedom to dictate your own life on your own terms. The ability to make decisions that define you as a person. The luxury to customize the things around you to fit in with your lifestyle and your persona. The right to express yourself. The right to be an individual. The right to be you!

Above is a depressing, ham-fisted, but incredibly successful marketing plot aimed at striping you of your dignity and of your money.The illusion of personal assistance and luxury to sucker you into thinking you have power or options. “Customize your cup to suit you!”

Yes, personal customization now includes things as petty and redundant as your morning cup of coffee.
Want to show people that you are on a diet? Get a skinny latte (and then knock it back with a triple chocolate fudge cake that may as well be renamed Cholesterol on a Plate).
Want to show you enjoy coffee without gaining any of the benefits of coffee? Get decaf. (And on the subject of decaf; people that drink it are stupid. Are person that drink coffee for the taste rather than the caffeine is as retarded as a smack addict shooting up because he likes to play with needles, not because he like getting high.)
Want to show you’re a undeniable, grade-A cunt? Get a soya drink.

So now you can customize your coffee in a million different ways. And it makes you happy right? Makes you feel warm inside? Empowered and content? Feeling pretty good are we? Well no, you’re not. You have just shot yourself in your foot. And I’ll tell you why.

The more choice you have, the longer it takes for your drink to be made. Making a soya, decaf, half shot cappuccino with sugar free hazelnut syrup, whipped cream and cinnamon powder is going to take a lot longer than making a cappuccino. The more tweaks you make, the longer you are going to have to wait. The longer you have to wait, the longer the queue will become. And believe me, when you are serving hundreds of people a day, that shit adds up. Some people realize this and try to be nice and simple. They will order, “just a regular coffee.” However, sadly, due to the fact that we live in a world of the “customized consumer” these good, honest, straight forward folk are forced to endure a mini interrogation from myself.
“Is that a small, regular or large?”
“Is it to have in or to take away?”
“Is it with or without milk?”
And of course, when you are partaking in these exchanges dozens upon dozens of times a day, then it also adds up.

Now don’t get me wrong. There is nothing (well, little) bad about having choice. Choice is good. Choice, as a consumer, allows us to be ourselves. Otherwise we’d be all wearing the same clothes, eating the same food, listening to the same music, voting the same way and having the same conversations. However what you have to understand is there is a time when personalization becomes ridiculously pedantic. And you also have to know that choice leads to time. Time leads to waiting. Waiting to leads to queues. Queues lead to the dark side. And the sad fact is that the anally retentive customizing customer will be the same person tutting while they wait, complaining that their coffee is taking too long to prepare.

God, I hate you all.

Revelations and Rockers.

There’s something I have to tell you all. Something I have been struggling with for a while now. My own inner demons have been wrestling with my soul, my true feelings at conflict with the world in which I inhabit. And now these feelings have become too prominent for me to ignore anymore. I just can’t go on living a lie.

And the sad truth is I don’t actually hate my job with all the scorn and loathing that I propagate in these pages. I suppose that, in a way, I actually kind of like some aspects of my job. Sort of.

I came to this realisation while scanning over my last post. Promotion Beckons was a fairly lazy, substandard effort at attacking the dreary of promotion. It read like someone who learnt all their politics from Rage Against the Machine album covers and all their philosophy from The Matrix (which sadly, isn’t too far from the truth).

However it contained no real venom, no bite, no vicious sting in the tail; it was only a tepid, pseudo-angry tirade. And that’s because I really didn’t have the gumption and energy to put the spite into it. Because the spite isn’t really there anymore. The spite has just become a dull nagging sensation that brings me neither pleasure nor pain. My job really isn’t as bad as I make out.

I like the people I work with. I like (some) of the customers I serve. The tasks I undertake, while an inconvenience, aren’t as soul crushingly painful as I make them out to be. My life for the past few months has just been a ridiculous, hyperbolic whine. I’m just complaining for the sake of complaining and things really aren’t that bad.

Luckily now, everything is becoming a little more zen in my hectic world.

That is until Aging Metalhead Twat comes in and ruins everything for everyone.

You know Aging Metalhead Twat. He’s that guy that sits in dingy little rock pubs, studiously drinking Newcastle Brown Ale or, if he sees himself as an even higher level Aging Metalhead Twat, some locally brewed ale that tastes of warm piss but he insists is a “true drink”. He’s the guy with the scraggy old beard, dirty long hair and a stained Motorhead T-shirt. He’s the guy who is always spouting about tales long ago when he was a roadie for Deep Purple (he wasn’t) or when he snorted cocaine in a toilet with Ozzy Osbourne (he didn’t).

He is sometime surrounded by a group of impressionable teenagers who think a guy who essentially hasn’t changed his lifestyle since he was 16 years old is the coolest thing in the world. He pretends to act superior to his followers and will use phrases like, “You kids nowadays don’t know what Metal is.” But he is constantly worried that this band of followers will one day become tired of his bullshit, filter away and find a new idol (or just grow up).

So why, I have to ask, would someone who clearly has something passionately against all things modern/commercial/brightly lit, come into a modern, multinational coffee chain with all its bulbs working? Why? Because he just wants to complain.

“This coffee isn’t black enough!”

“This coffee isn’t strong enough!”

“This music is rubbish!”

“The young people next to me are too loud and dress in colours far too bright.”

It’s as if Abe Simpson has suddenly donned a dirty leather jacket with AC/DC patches.

So here’s my advice to Aging Metalhead Twats everywhere: Go back to the dark little corner of the pub that you inhabit and leave coffeeshops to proactive commuters and jittery white collar workers. You knew before you came in that you weren’t going to like the place and I’ve heard every single one of your complaints before. You’re not cool for complaining. You’re not “metal” for complaining. You haven’t showed the system by complaining. You haven’t stayed true to your lifestyle because you haven’t had a hair cut for twenty years. Now brush the cobwebs out of your beard and fuck off. You've ruined my zen.

Promotion beckons.

Ah. Soon, no longer will I be the downtrodden Barista, the lowest of the low, lapping at the most pathetic rung of the career ladder, only just above sewer rats and toenail clippings. No, soon I will be promoted to my new glorious title of Shift Leader. I will have respect from those above me and my very own underlings to degrade, humiliate and perform all the rancid tasks that I do not wish to do.

They can mop and scrub while I busy myself with paper work (and when I saw paper work I mean fag breaks). No longer with I have to have my arm thrust halfway down a u-bend unclogging several days worth of human waste. I can just summon one of the more junior staff members to do it. I can sit atop a tower of my own ego and command them from up high, and if they even so much as glance at me with disloyal eyes at my abhorrent behaviour I will strike them down with my almighty hammer of judgment. I will have them fired for insubordination. The Court Martial will be a very prominent threat while I am in charge.

Or not.

No, what will really happen is that I will get a minor pay rise, a brain crushing amount of new responsibility, more bureaucratic and corporate pressure pushing down on my shoulders and nothing to show for it other than contempt from those below me and a look of inferiority from those above. In the world of the coffeeshop it seems the further uphill you progress the more if feels like you are being kicked down.

Or another way to look at it is that the more you progress the more you are assimilating with machine and soon all your cognitive functions will be operating with terrible synchronisation to the Coffee Reich that you belong to.

Oh well. Time to plug myself back in.

A Writers Tale

Here’s some valuable advice that I have picked up from the caffeinated front line: Never, ever, engage a writer about their work. Ever.

Now, I understand the glaring hypocrisy of bemoaning writers when I myself spend most of my spare time cobbling together words to make badly thought out screenplays, ridiculous short stories and a novel which, I have to admit, will probably never see the light of day. Not to mention this irreverent blog, written as if I’m some kind of pioneering genius, the first person in the world to use the internet to bitch about their job.

However, I do try my best not to bore people in real life by explaining in excruciating detail the character arc of my latest protagonist or the subject of my latest blog rant. This, sadly, is not the case for all writers.

If you remember my Coffeeshop Bingo post a while ago I told you about Laptop Hemingway Prick, a self obsessed, waste of time fuckbag who is so studiously wrapped up and involved in his writing that he has to tell anyone and everyone about how wrapped up and involved he is with his writing. So instead of spending time writing he spends his time talking about how he spends his time writing. He therefore achieves nothing apart from boring those around him into brain-dead submission.

Luckily I’ve become fairly astute at avoiding these tedious litanies but sometimes a Laptop Hemingway Prick can be devious and not immediately obvious. Today I was suckered into talking to one.

And to make it worse, it was my day off!

Sadly my social life has come to such a grinding halt, completely diminished by my relentless work schedule that I now spend my days off in the store, just to socialize. Yes, I spend all day and all night cursing the place but still voluntarily whittle away my free time there. I understand this makes me a bellend of epic proportions. No need to point that one out for yourselves.

Anyway, so there I was, innocuously chatting away to my work mates when a regular sitting near us started to join in the conversation. I noticed he had a pen and pad of paper in front of him so I casually asked what he was writing about. This was a big mistake. My colleagues, sharper than I was, quickly vanished, suddenly remembering they were inundated with a work load that had to be done immediately. As they scampered away like wild animals from a forest fire, it dawned on me that they knew something I didn’t. Little did I know was that this regular is a Laptop Hemingway Prick (minus the laptop) and my question was the worst thing I could have asked. It was the catalyst he needed to lunch into a dreary speech about his book; a travel memoir about his life as a steward for motor racing events.

Now, motor racing is a fairly exciting sport so it takes a special kind of monotone douche to demote it to the kind of boredom usually associated with garden bowls. But boy, did he manage it. Just half an hour of being lectured on the weather conditions of Silverstone, track smoothness in Singapore and the catering service in Dubai felt like being forced to watch and entire Le Manns race, completely unedited and without sleep. I was exhausted. Exhausted and depressed.

And the worst thing was, as he was spewing this garbage, he didn’t once think that people wouldn’t be interested in his life story and his anecdotes about work. I mean, what sort of sap would voluntarily read about someone describing their life doing a tedious and monotonous job in aching detail………

The Morning Crowd

I can say, with all concrete honesty, that there is nothing on earth that is as bad as hearing your alarm going off at 5.30 in the morning, signaling that it is time to start your day. The incessant ringing that punishing your ear drums and beats your sleepy brain into submission. That’s when you know it’s time for work.

And working the early morning shift in a coffeeshop is stupendously awful. It's as if the company, or a vengeful god, has studiously tailored them to be the worst possible experience this side of waterboarding. We have to arrive at 6.15am to prep the shop. At that time, during these long winter months the place is cold, dark, depressing and those smells I used to love – the baking of fresh pastries, warm coffee – I now detest with a passion. They are the stimulus that sets in motion flashbacks of my ingrained psychological trauma, like shouting, “Surprise!” to a rape victim.

Then at 7.00am we open and the morning crowd enters. The morning crowd is a small group of people/oddballs, most of whom come in every single day and buy the same drinks, sit in the same places, read the same newspaper and hang their coats in the same way. In other words; they’re all obsessively compulsive freaks who really should be sterilized for being such a hopeless burden.

And because they are there every single day at a period when it is relatively quiet they think they can start talking to you and befriending you. This is because it is likely none of them have any other friends and have to converse with people who are trapped in the gallows of croissants and coffee, poor sods like me that are forced to listen to them. And their talk makes my morning - which already started pretty far downhill - start to tumble further down a painful, slippery slope before rolling off the edge of the craggy cliffs of despair and crashing crumpled in a depressed mess, impaled on the sharp rocks of their boring conversations. I just wish they would shut up. The morning is like awkward sex; no one enjoys it but talking during it is only going to make things worse.

But the main reason I have no respect for these people? It is because, at a time when it is perfectly valid and acceptable to lie in bed, sleeping peacefully and dreaming wistfully, pretending the real world doesn’t exist, they come in and sit for up to an hour before they go to work. A whole hour! Instead of sleeping like people with fully functioning cognitive ability, they sit with their black Americanos and stare at the same peeling paint work and look longingly off into the distance wishing their life had some meaning. I have no respect for people that voluntarily get out of bed early so that can sit in a shitty coffee shop and look depressed.

Anyway, I’m off to bed now. In a few short hours I'll be doing it all over again. ’Bon Nuit.

The Art of Queuing.

As a nation we, the British, are meant to be very good at queuing. The unwritten rule of no jumping or pushing in is upheld by a strong subconscious moral fiber embedded from a young age. This way everyone will be served in a fair and ordered fashion. Just how we like it.
And we do this. We do this very well. We are good at standing in a line, one behind another, slowly shuffling forward like coin operated penguins. However while the basic rule are almost universally upheld there are so many things that people do in queues that single them out as completely brain dead cretins. Here, for educational purposes, I give you the dos and do nots of queuing.

Do
Stand quietly and respectfully keeping all thoughts, feelings and ideas to yourself. If you are accompanied by a fellow human (or a “friend” as so many trendy hipsters are saying these days to describe other carbon based life forms with similar tastes and interests) I suppose it is acceptable to talk but everyone would be much happier if you didn’t.

Do not
Talk about the unacceptable length of the queue just loud enough so that the people serving you hear but not loud enough for it to seem like you’re being a nuisance. No one is forcing you to queue and a long queue is far more of an inconvenience for us than it is for you. So shut your cakehole and be patient.

Do
Know exactly what you want when you get to the head of the queue. If ordering for other people, treat the list of drinks like it is an important exam. Revise that shit in your head until you can recite it as easily as a twenty year old can recite The Fresh Prince of Bel Air rap. There’s nothing more annoying than someone shouting half way across the store because they can’t remember if Aunt Agatha wanted a decaf, soya latte or a single shot, semi skimmed cappuccino.

Do not
Queue alone if you’re ordering food and drink for your entire extended family. You only have two hands dipshit. You can’t carry £30 worth of coffee and cheesecake on your own. Don’t expect a platoon of pygmies or Umpa Lumpas to appear out of nowhere and escort your food to your table for you.

Do
Be succinct and quick as possible. Try and have money ready at the till.

Do not
Be an unfathomable bellend and buy a 75p chocolate bar with a credit card. Sure we accept them but that doesn’t mean we encourage it. Cards take about four times longer than cash. There’s probably a cash point across the road anyway.

Do
Be as efficient as possible while ordering. Know what you want and say it. We’re not asking you to be polite, just quick. In fact I hate it when people are polite because then I am forced to be nice back and then there is a danger of some sort of minor emotional attachment forming. That’s like a farmer being friends with his cabbages. Yes, I called you a cabbage. What are you going to do about it?

Do not
Tell me about about your day/your job/your pets/your loved ones. I’ve got a queue up to my eye balls and not one person gives a shit about your grannies hip operation.

Do
Be thankful I didn’t spit in your coffee (although this rule is flexible depending on my mood).

Do not
Expect to be served in decent time or with a smile on a weekend. It’s inevitable that we’re going to be packed all day Saturday and Sunday just like it was inevitable that someone would eventually produce some hot Na’vi hentai.

Do
Think twice about coming in. In many ways the most important rule of all. Just ask yourself, “Is it really worth my while to stand in long queue and be served by an angry underachiever only to have to pay ridiculous amount of money for a drink you could make a home?” If the answer is no then fuck off and bother someone else.

I hope you're all a little more educated now. I'm off to pick flint from my belly button while longing for the touch of a beautiful woman.

I hope you all have a rotten day.

Mechanical Breakdow

It’s 1pm on a Monday afternoon. Outside the sun is out for the first time in 4 months. The light just about manages to fight its way down through the narrow high street and finds a small foothold in our humble little coffee shop. The store is half full, customers milling about in vacant little groups, doing annoying things such as getting in the way and ordering coffee. Behind the bar our team is steadily busy but not strenuously overworked. If asked I’d almost be able to say I was having a good day. Ok, "good" would be a stretch but it’s certainly one of the less shit days.

This is until there is a bang, a large shudder of machinery and finally a dying whine from behind me. The dishwasher has decided to pack it in, fed up with its routine day in day out, and has felt the best option is to malfunction.. We switch it off before it starts spewing water all over the floor.

>Now, while this is a pain in the ass, it’s not the biggest problem in the world. We have a spare dishwasher in the kitchen that can be used till maintenance arrives. I call the maintenance guy and then switch on the dishwasher upstairs. Now this dishwasher is slow, old and takes an age to fire up. It slowly wakes, creaking, rumbling and gearing up with a metallic groan. It’s kind of like the molten metal machine at the end of Alien 3. It takes a bloody age to come into operation (and can probably be used to trap Xenomorphs).

I get it started,. We wash dishes with it for a couple of hours. The maintenance guy arrives. He fixes the dishwasher downstairs. He leaves. We go back to using the original and everything is hunky-dory, right?

It’s 8.15pm. We shut the store at 7.30 and are now closing down. We get paid until 8.30, an hour being generally enough time to close the place down. We’re on target to get out on time. I've only got upstairs to sweep and three trays of dishes to wash. I’m upstairs sweeping. From downstairs I hear a bang, a large shudder of machinery and finally an all too familiar dying whine from downstairs. Shit shit and shit.

I run downstairs. The dishwasher has gone all Linda Blair on us, projectile vomiting it’s contents all over the floor. The bar now resembles a World War One trench, dirty water flooding every surface. I call Alex, the guy that I am closing with who is doing paper work in the office. He comes down stairs, swears some obscenities, throws his arms in the air and eventually formulates a plan; We will stick the washing we haven’t done in the kitchen upstairs for tomorrow morning, mop the water up now and leave the place as clean as we can get.

So the disgusting sludge water is mopped up, which takes us till 9.00. We dump the three trays of washing upstairs and then leave.

Nine and a quarter hours later. It's 6.15am. I’m back to open the store for Tuesday morning. I’m opening with my manager, Hazel, who is already inside. She has the eyes of an enraged rhino.

“Why the hell are there dirty dishes up in the kitchen?” she practically screams.

I don’t have to be putting up with this shabby crap, not at this time in the morning. I explain about the dishwasher, the flooding and the fact that we didn’t get out till 9.00.

It doesn’t placate her. “What about the other dishwasher? Why didn’t you use that?”

“Because then we would have been here to 9.30! Don’t give a farmer a Mini Cooper and complain when he struggles to plow a field.”

“Well it’s illegal to leave dirty dishes over night. You should have done them anyway.”

“Yeah, well it’s also illegal for me to be working without having an 11 hour consecutive work break between shifts.”

She shuts up. I win. She goes and cleans the dishes upstairs and is nice to me for the rest of the day.

Oh well. I suppose every cloud has its silver lining.

In short, don’t take any shabby crap and know your rights. You’d be surprised how quickly people shit their pants when the law is mentioned. And also try and avoid working in places with dishwashers.

Let’s play Coffeeshop Bingo

Hey everyone! Here’s a fun game you can all play at your local coffee emporium (although I use the word “fun” in the loosest possible way). The rules are simple; take my scorecard from bellow, head to your local Starbucks/Costa/Nero/Coffee Republic/other soulless multinational coffee Reich, buy a coffee, sit down and spend some quality time gawking at people like a potential sex offender. Every time you see one of these coffee shop sights score some points. There are even potential bonuses. Yay!

Mental, middle aged divorcée
Score: 30 points
She comes in at the break of dawn everyday and smiles as if her life isn’t a worthless series of lonely moments. Always is talking about how she’s going to bring in her kids sometime for some family time. She’s been saying it for the past seven years. The kids have never come in.
Score 10 Bonus points: Out of the corner of her eye you catch a single rolling tear as she has the brief realization that she is dying alone.

Cuntish, Student Toffs
Score: 10 points
Posh, rich, trust-fund motherfuckers that sit in large groups scoffing obnoxiously at everyone around them and sniffing their own collective, self satisfied farts. All of them are intolerable cunts.
Score 10 bonus points: One of them mentions something that “daddy” has just brought them.

Constantly Buzzing Accountant
Score: 20 points
Wired on a diet consisting of sixteen double espressos and a blueberry yogurt, this guy sits at his laptop furiously typing away at a small mountain of financial spreadsheets and business power-point presentations. Strenuously overworked because he had to fire his interns as a result of the recession, he’s just two clicks away from putting his first through his monitor. Ask him how his day is and his face will explode.
Score 10 Bonus points: He pulls out clumps of his hair every time his Blackberry goes off.

High-Vizz wearing, Neanderthal Bastard
Score: 10 points
Comes in with his St George’s Cross tattoo visibly showing, orders a coffee and makes a loud, laddish, Danny Dyeresque “witticism” about how in the good old days coffee was just coffee and you didn’t have all this continental, cappuccino nonsense.
Score 10 Bonus points: The middle class barista serving him has donned an embarrassing and patronizing Mockney accent and is asking, “Did you catch the footie at the weekend?” as if they are soul buddies. Neanderthal Bastard hates this.

Anti-establishment Rocker
Score 20 points
Still has dreadlocks, wears Che Guevara T-shirts and listens to Rage Against the Machine for their political insights at the age of 32. Sits in a corporate coffee shop, drinks Lattes and carries a Macbook. Spends all afternoon writing angsty, left wing, anti-corporate poetry while sitting in a Starbucks. Doesn’t get the irony.

Laptop Hemingway Prick
Score 30 points
Sits with his laptop on display for the whole world, so that everyone can see his is working on his Magnum Opus. When asked how his day is he will go into a long tirade about how he can’t get the third act of his novel to tie together. Will then go on to tell you the plot of his novel for the sixteenth time in painstaking detail. 100% self involved. Doesn’t realise anyone else exists.
Score 10 bonus points: Laptop Hemingway is complaining of writers block yet again.

Confused Asians
Score 10 points
Large groups of Japanese tourists all gazing at the pricing board, utterly dumbfounded by the massive amount of options with no idea what any of them are. Will take a stab in the dark at ordering something and then look visibly disappointing when presented with their drink as it is clearly not what they thought they were getting.
Score 10 Bonus points: If they are pulling peace signs as they pose for pictures.

Fascist Espresso Mussolini
Score 40 points
Old Italian tourist that has ridiculously high standards for his double espressos. Will return two or three to the bar complaining that they are too weak/strong/bitter/flavourless.
Score 10 bonus points: Espresso Mussolini is accompanied by painfully beautiful daughter that is distracting the barista from making her fathers espresso.

Batty Old Ladies
Score 10 points
Two batty old women that look like they’ve just come off the set of Coronation Street. Sit with a cup of tea and babble endlessly to each other about the weather or a relatives wedding . Scared of foreigners.
Score 10 bonus points: Batty old ladies mention how cold it is outside to the strangers sitting next to them as if they are proclaiming some previously unrevealed secret.

Depressed, Semi Competent Employee
Score 10 points
Has the glazed look of a man sucked of his soul, repetitively serving coffee after coffee in an endless cycle of self pity. Forced to smile at customers by his manager who he hates. Has the burden of cooperate weight bearing down on his shoulders at all time. Hates everyone. Probably blogs about it.
Score 10 bonus points: Semi Competent Employee has a look that suggests he wishes a plane would fly into the building and incinerate everyone in a raging fireball.

No one likes a smartass. Especially in the Espresso industry.

“Hello sir. How can I help you?” I ask.
“I’ve got one leg shorter than the other,” he replies and then chuckles to himself manically. I hang my head and sigh. This is going to be a long order.
“Can I get you anything to drink?” I readjust my question, trying to make it as direct as possible so as to avoid him interpreting it to fit his “comedy” style.
“Well I’m in a coffeeshop so I probably want a coffee. Not rocket science is it.” He laughs again and then nudges his wife, a plump woman with a shallow stare, who gives a small smile to her husband and then makes depressed eye contact with me suggesting the burke does it all the time.

Every now and again we get a comedian in. Someone who thinks that they are so uncontrollably funny that they have to project jokes loudly to everyone and anyone in a seven mile radius. Usually they are kids who think they’re being dreadfully clever without realising they are coming across as punchable bellends. Sadly this guy is a fully grown man in his fifties and really should know better.
“What coffee would you like?” I ask through gritted teeth. I can feel the enamel grinning away into dust.
“Two white coffees please. None of that foam. I want a coffee not a bubble bath,” he says still laughing to himself.
I make the coffees and then ask in my driest tone, “Anything to eat or anymore witticisms with that?”
He doesn’t pick up the loathing in my voice. “I see you have fat free muffins! Fat free?!” He looks up and around the store as if expecting everyone to be gazing at him, waiting for him to deliver his next punchline. “Well where does all the fat go? Is it sucked out and put on some muffin fat mountain somewhere!” His last sentence is barely comprehensible because it is almost drowned out by his now uncontrollably raucous laughter.
No one else is laughing.
The customers behind him stare with the sort of contempt that Haitians have for sudden earth movements .
He doesn’t have a clue.

It’s really sad when this happens. Mentally unstable old men with no sense of self awareness making absolute tits out of themselves in public, thinking they are Billy Connolly but actually coming across as an idiotic boob, a real life David Brent. I mean shit, if Chemical Ali is getting executed for gassing Kurds then this guy definitely needed to be hung for spouting such unfunny noxious fumes from his pie hole.

So here’s a protip for any of you wannabe stand-up comedians; before you start spreading your mirth to anyone and everyone, do an open mic night down your local and listen to the response your jokes get. If the only response you get from the room is of yawning, tumbleweeds and empty pint glasses being thrown at you, don’t come into public buildings and try out your routine on an undeserving coffee shop employee. Because one day you’ll do it when one of us are at breaking point and you’ll find your grinning face being smashed repeatedly on an espresso machine before having it jammed in the Panini toaster.
Bastards.

The Terrible, Terrible Cold

So Britain has been plagued by bad weather recently. A light dusting of snow and the whole country has ground to a stand still. This prompts people to feel they have to state the obvious at each and every opportunity. “Cold, isn’t it?” customers inform me on a day to day basis. “It’s been snowing again,” the more observant of them point out.

Really? Jeez, I didn’t notice. When I’m not operating this coffee machine I’m locked up in a cage with no outside contact, cut off from the world with only left over Panini’s and stale coffee as sustenance. Thanks for informing me. I’ll pass on the news to the other caged monkeys (To be fair, I probably shouldn’t make light of the cage idea. If the company found out that it saved them money we’d never be allowed to leave the store ever again).

But the cold doesn’t just bring out the bleeding obvious from people. It also fucks up each and every bit of engineering that keeps our country running. Yesterday, due to the subzero temperature – and the fact that our country is about as prepared for snowfall as Poland was for the Nazis – a pipe burst under the street that our store is situated on and the entire row of shops were without flowing water. This isn’t particularly bad if you’re selling designer dresses, like the store next to us, but it’s a royal pain in the ass for us. Our coffee machine died, we were unable to wash dishes and our toilets stopped working (right when I needed to take a giant dump). A coffeeshop with no coffee is as pointless an internet setting with parental control turned on.

However, much to my surprise, the general public didn’t take it out on me when I informed them of the situation. I expected them to moan and cry and rage and start flipping over tables in caffeine depleted madness. But they didn’t. They just slumped in a defeated humph. It was as if everyone had just become used to the cold fucking them over repeatedly and now just accepted it as if it were just an inevitable inconvenience. They could go home that night and be told that their first born son had been picked up in a blizzard and carried six hundred miles before being dumped in the north sea somewhere near Norway and they’d still have the same reaction. In the fight between the cold and the British, the cold was sadly going to defeat us and we just had to accept it.

But the most amazing thing about this was what happened when the pipe was fixed and our machine started working again. It had been out of order for about two hours and the shop was virtually empty. However as soon as the water came back on and the first person got served a steaming hot latte , the doors burst open and people scrambled in as quick as they would if Cheryl Cole announced she was opening her legs to the general public. It was as if they had all been camped outside waiting eagerly, salivating like fat, teenage, female Goths awaiting the premier of the new Twilight movie. As soon as they heard the Espresso running again their caffeine sense went into overdrive and they became as excited as a dog in heat. Soon we had a queue to the door and it was back to business.

“Cold outside, isn’t it?” An old lady said at the head of the queue.

I wish the water was always off.

How to Correctly Laugh at an Area Manager’s Joke

(and a few other things of minor importance)

Remember that episode of Friends when Monica gets annoyed at Chandler for laughing at his boss’s bad jokes? Of course you do! Thanks to E4, everyone has seen every episode of Friends enough times that the image of those six burkes dicking around in a fountain is ingrained into the back of our brain like a traumatic childhood incident, unable to be removed even with the most extensive counseling.

Well that situation is surprisingly true to life. Your boss makes a crap joke, you laugh. It’s the rules. Why do you think so many people in high positions are so painfully unfunny? Because there is no one under them to tell them that their jokes are shit. And the higher up the career ladder you go, the less people above you to tell them that your jokes are awful. Ever laughed when the Pope does his Christmas stand-up show? Of course not. There’s no one on earth that can warn the pope that his routine isn’t getting funny anytime soon. So he still rattles out the same skit about the imaginary dude in the sky, year after year, until it becomes so boring those in the audience, unable to effectively heckle him off stage, resort to diving at him and dragging him to the ground in a effort to get him to stop.

But what that episode of Friends doesn’t go in depth about is the manner in which you should laugh. Not every laugh is appropriate for every situation. For instance, today my Area Manager, the most senior member of the company that I am going to have to deal with, came in. We were busy so she came behind the bar and gave us a hand. After a few orders she messed up and, laughing loudly, said to me, “Looks like I should be in your position and you in mine.”

Now, this is barely a joke. In fact, I’d go as far as to say that it was the least entertaining thing I’d heard someone say without mentioning Belgium. However you’re forced to laugh at it.

But how?

You can’t go for an all out, belly laugh because it’d be inappropriate and you don’t know them that well. You can’t go for a small little, half assed snicker because then it wouldn’t seem as if it were funny enough. You can’t go for the ridiculing laugh that you use to laugh at someone because she’d think you were laughing at her. You can’t go for a nodding, i-see-what-you-did-there-laugh because even she’s aware enough to know there is nothing clever about this joke (she just doesn’t realize that there is nothing funny about it either).

So in the end I just ended up puffing out a series of artificial, subdued chuckles that sounded like I was mildly out of breath or had something stuck in my throat. She didn’t look entirely satisfied with this response, perhaps aware of the forced nature of my laugh. She didn’t make anymore jokes for the rest of the day. Maybe I did some damage to her self confidence and will force her to reevaluate how she interacts with people. Or maybe I’ll check the Rota for next week and find out that I’m working 12 hour shifts all week in the solitary store room. The latter is sadly more likely.

On another note, if you’re one of those teenage girls that’s into Flight of the Concords, Biffy Clyro and MGMT, who wears checkered shirts and Mighty Boosh t-shirts and thinks saying things like, “I like cheese,” is random and hilarious; STOP IT! No one likes you and that one that guy you fancy, your “artisan” friend that hangs out in your large, all female, group is only one trip to Brighton away from coming out of the closet.

And one more thing; your cup of coffee does not represent your personality and when you hear a slogan that says, “customize your cup to suit you!” don’t take it as a personal challenge. The more you try and individualize your coffee (skinny/soya milk, single/extra shot, decaf, extra hot, no/extra froth, pre-warmed cup, only coffee beans that have been picked by left handed people) the more we’re going to deliberately get it wrong.

One final note: I'm not entirely sure what fotolia stands for in the picture that accompanies this entry. All I can imagine is that it is a word that describes the atmosphere of shame and self loathing you feel when you try and stick your tongue up your superior's asshole.

New Years Day Madness

The Nightmare just doesn’t end.

After being assured News Years Day off two weeks ago by not one, but both of my managers I was gearing up for a nights celebration to welcome in the new decade. There was going to be wild abandonment, copious drinking and failed attempts to pick up strange women in bars.

However, the day before New Years Eve I was informed that because of staff shortages, caused by the company’s steadfast refusal to put anyone else on the pay roll, I’d actually have to work a 9 hour shift from 10am till 7pm on New Years Day.
After spending two days bitterly pissed off I decided to not let this interrupt my nights festivities and proceeded to do all the things I had lined up for myself and just deal with the aftereffects the next day. I abandoned with wildness, drank copiously and chatted to this girl who seemed interested for a while but texted me a happy new year from 40 miles away in another man’s bed. All was going to plan. I went to bed at around 5am, knowing I had to be up in about 4 hours to work but figured it was New Years Day and so no one would come in to get coffee. It would be nice and quiet.

It’s amazing that even though practically every other shop and store in town was shut people still flooded in, gawping at empty store windows, pressing on the doors lightly, unable to understand why it wouldn’t open or why the bright lights on the inside weren’t switched on. This mass closure confused them. They got irritated. They became angry. Then they came to bother me.

Now it’s important to remember that people who go to town on New Years Day and the people that are so stupid they’re not actually capable of completing the act of sleeping. They are so brain dead that sleeping is even too challenging for them. On the one day of the year when it’s perfectly acceptable to spend all day under the covers without fear of reprimand, they fuck it all up and resort to basic primitive instincts: buy coffee, complain loudly and pick flint from their belly buttons. Hundreds of them. We were busier on New Years Day than the build up to Christmas. It was disgusting.

There were two significant things happening in our store on 1/1/10. Firstly the VAT charges had gone up. Most of our items had risen by 5p. This not so complex economical situation perplexed many. The regulars, old biddies with their change of coppers all stacked in neat, precise little piles, politely waiting for their coffee were suddenly flabbergasted by the fact that it wasn’t the correct amount. Explaining the VAT change was like explaining family values to Joseph Fritzl. They just stood there, dumbfounded, unable to comprehend this simple fact. I may as well have been talking French while juggling starfish and wearing ladies underwear and a snorkel. They didn’t have a clue.

The second significant thing to change today was the fact that we closed early. Instead of 7.30pm we shut at 6pm. Many couldn’t understand this. “What? But I was going to come here and do some work on my laptop tonight! What am I going to do now?” One man protested. Shit, you could be using your laptop to surf the internet for a Thai Bride to smuggle heroin into Felixstowe for all I care, but you’re not doing it in here tonight. Go home, put the kettle on and do it there you braindead cretin. Another man even challenged us, saying a sign outside said we were open to 7.30 so therefore we were legally obliged to open for that long. Unfortunately he cranial abilities couldn’t compute the sign directly under the Regular Opening Hours sign which listed the Christmas Opening Hours sign. <

These poor omens on the first day of this new decade suggest that the next ten years will be no more progressive or uplifting than the last. It’ll still be inhabited by noisy assholes that would rather spend a day in a congested coffee shop, surrounded by other morons, all unable to understand things like Vat Charges, Christmas Opening Times or the concept of sleep. Bastards.

Boxing Day Madness

There once was a time when Boxing Day was a day of lethargic family festivities. It was a time when our overstuffed digestive systems would attempt to cope with the barrage of gluttony that we indulged in the day before. A time when we would lounge around our houses with our family and play with the gifts we had been given for Christmas or watch movie marathons on TV. It was a time when we didn’t have to worry about the approaching January sales because they were a week away.
But not anymore.

The quiet slumber of Boxing Day has now become a hectic rush of sales shopping in which hundreds of thousands descend upon the high street like a pilgrimage to appease the God of consumerism. Almost all major stores opened their doors today to frantic, manic, wild eyes bargain hunters. Only M&S, Morrisons and Waitros maintained some dignity in abiding by the Yule time Calendar. The other stores were packed with maniacs all fighting with zealous abandonment, desperate to find the best bargains around. It was like 28 Days Later with a discount sign.

However, what is strange about all this is that the items in the sales are the poor quality crap that stores couldn’t get rid of before Christmas at full price so now need to be flogged off with massive discounts. It reminded me of the classic joke in the Simpsons when Apu tries to appease Homer’s complaints with five pounds of fish in a bucket. “This shrimp isn't frozen! And it smells funny!” Homer observes. “Ok, ten pounds!” Apu says pulling out another bucket. “Wahoo!”
It’s exactly the same in the “January” sales. The poor quality stuff that couldn’t be sold at Christmas is sold at half the price and everyone acts as if it’s the last days of Rome and the Coliseum is 50% off. The clothing giant Next was open at 7am today to appease these idiots. As I locked up my bike near my local Next store I saw two employees standing at the entrance handing out bin bags to entering shoppers so that they could carry all the items they need. The worst thing was that some of the shoppers looked slightly disappointed with their bin bag, realizing its 40 liter capacity wasn’t going to be enough to hold the small mountain of clothes they were intending to buy. I was saddened to see more than one person return for a second bag.

Now, all this post Christmas madness had a depressingly significant effect on our little coffeeshop: It filled us with even more enraged shoppers that usual.

But that wasn’t even the worst part.

As I have already stated, Boxing Day is traditionally a time for families. And it still is. Except now they have been torn from the warm bosom of the living room and are plunged into cold town centers and shopping districts. This means the age range of our customers today raised from about 15 – 40 years old, to everyone between the ages of 1 and 100. Yes, the youngest son and the oldest grandparents were pulled along to “enjoy” family time, (although I’m sure neither had a bloody clue what was going on or where they were, instead they choice to crumple in their chair in a semi-sentient daze drooling on themselves).

This also meant that instead of customers buying coffee for themselves and maybe one other person, they were buying for their entire extended family. One member of the family would try and painfully recite an order of sixteen coffees, often forgetting halfway through who was having what and have to start all over again. It had to sit through these forgetful litanies over and over again. It was like having Peaches Geldof attempting to recite the alphabet to you.
After this was over the kids would necklarge hot chocolates from mugs that were three times the size of their upper bodies and then go charging around the store like lobotomized monkeys trying to escape a testing lab. The parents, trapped under the mountain of shopping bags would be powerless to stop the buggers from causing havoc. Gradually anarchy spread through the store as children from different families started interacting with each other without laws, restraint of supervision. It made Lord of the Flies look like a weekend retreat.

Eventually the madness came to an end as the afternoon turned to evening and everyone realized what a horrible, stressful, expensive and pointless day it had been meandering between clustered groups of assholes and generally acting like a bellend. Perhaps next year they will think better and just stay at home with a game of Boggle and The Great Escape on TV. However, because the collective IQ of these bargain hunters seems to be only slightly above that of a toaster, they’ll probably all do it again next year, completely forgetting the misery it caused themselves this year.

Espionage and a Girl (or how I became the worst James Bond on the planet).

Today I went against the system. I snuck and I snaked and I deceived. I played the double agent and sent information to the other side. It’s getting too much. The regime is relentless and I seek greener pastures. I sent my CV to another place.
But treachery comes at a high price in the totalitarian state that is the coffeeshop. If the higher ups found out there’d be hell to pay. They’d sit me down with a manager and explain in full length the wealth of “glorious opportunities” that would arise if I stuck with them. They’d show me the career ladder graph (yes it actually exists) and pinpoint where I could be on it in only a few short months. It would be a punishment worse than the gulags.
So I had to be covert with my espionage and told no one of my plans to defect. But secrecy breeds paranoia and all through the day I felt burning eyes on the back of my neck. My co-workers shot me quick glances or distrust, their noses sniffing, as if smelling out the traitor. I started to feel like I was scribbling away in my diary just out of sight of the telescreens. I was at once more liberated and more fearful than I had been in my life.
And this lead me to realize that I’m just like Winston Smith but even more pathetic. At least he scored some hot, nonconformist poontang before being lobotomized by the machine. I can’t even do that, I thought to myself.

As I poured coffee into the souls of the twittery pions that comprise our clientele and thought about how maybe I had missed the point of Nineteen Eighty-four (There is more to it than having sex with anti-establishment rebels, right?) I was blindsided by a pair of intoxicating brown eyes. They belonged to a cute girl who I couldn’t help but keep feverish eye contact with.
However my mind was soon torn back to the memory of another girl that I have previously mentioned. (See: I totally Fell in Love Today). The girl from that story had come in the store a second time and had looked at me like I had asked if I could remove one of her kidneys with a hatchet. I think the looks we had been exchanging, which I had interpreted as shy, romantic gestures she must have thought were creepy, stalker stares from a potential sex offender.
So, with this memory fresh in my mind, I finished serving the brown eyed girl and ignored her as best I could while she drank her drink. I did pretty well considering she had perched herself on a table right in front of my eye line.
I continued with my duties.
A few moments later the brown eyed girl approached the counter, her empty mug in hand and handed it to me personally. Usually we clear the tables ourselves but sometimes customers bring them back to us. It’s either a polite way of removing some of our work load or a demeaning criticism suggesting that they think us too incompetent to clean some empty mugs from tables without tripping over our shoelaces and drooling on ourselves. It really depends on the customer.
So the empty mug was exchanged from her hands to mine when I notice something beside the mug. She smiles at me brightly and then leaves the store. I look down at the little bit of paper she has given me. I unfold it and inside it had her name, her number and “Nice hot chocolate” accompanied by a smiling face.
Holy shit! I think. This can’t be. Someone is interested in me. God has dealt me a favourable hand for once. The cosmic balance of the universe is unnaturally swinging ever so slightly in my favour. I phoned her up on my lunch break and we arranged a date later this week. If this good luck keeps up, I thought, I wont have enough cruel misery to plot down in this blog.
I left work feeling upbeat and positive for the first time in a long while. However when I walked in the door of my house I was greeted with the news that my grandmother had just died.
The depressing cosmic equilibrium of my life restored itself to its neutral setting.

Here's a transcript of a convo I had today with a girl I work with

Firstly I'll transcribe what I said. Then I'll tell you what I was thinking.

Her: Hi.

Me: Hey. How's it going?

Her: Not great.

Me: How come?

Her: Well my ex girlfriend phoned me up last night and we had a pretty nasty
conversation.

Me: Oh right. Sorry. What was it about?

Her: Nothing really. You know, just break up shit.

Me: Yeah, I know what you mean. How long we you together?

Her: About 6 months.

Me: Oh right.

Her: Yeah we met a uni and kidda knew we had feelings for each other. But we decided not to be together then because we were both pretty stressed and she had just come out of a relationship with a guy..

Me: Uh huh.

Her: And I'd just come out of a relationship with another girl and we both had lots of work to do all the time. But we started dating after that.

Me: Yeah, Uni can be stressful.

Her: Anyway, thanks for listening. And if I'm grumpy or anything to you today don't take it personally.

Me: No problem.


Anyway, that's what I said. Here's what I was thinking.

Her: Hi.

Me: Damn I wish I was fragging n00bs at MW 2 instead of at work talking to people.

Her: Not great.

Me: Ah man, I don't want to hear about your problems. I wish I'd never asked.

Her: Well my ex girlfriend phoned me up last night and we had a pretty nasty conversation.

Me: OMFGWTFBBQ?! You're a lesbian?! Way to be casual about it, bitch! Oh shit. Don't look surprised or anything or she'll think you're a homophobe and never let you watch. Act natural dammit.

Her: Nothing really. You know, just break up shit.

Me: No I don't know what a lesbian break up is like. Explain it to me. Did you have hot lesbian break up sex? Shit, am I getting a boner?

Her: About 6 months.

Me: Yep, definitely got a semi.

Her: Yeah we met a uni and kidda knew we had feelings for each other. But we decided not to be together then because we were both pretty stressed and she had just come out of a relationship with a guy..

Me: Fucking hell. I didn't want your life story. Damn you lesbians can be boring. Get to the part where you eat each others pussies like in those videos I watch.

Her: And I'd just come out of a relationship with another girl and we both had lots of work to do all the time

Me: Damn, I wonder if she's eaten more pussy than me.

Her: Anyway, thanks for listening. And if I'm grumpy or anything to you today don't take it personally.

Me: Don't take it personally if I wank to the thought of you muff diving tonight.

A chance encounter with celebrity

Ah ha! After the hours upon hours of relentless boredom, after the hundreds of bland faced automatons all blending into one another, after the wail of impatient children and, often, fully grown adults, we’ve finally had a celebrity come into our humble and overpriced coffeeshop.
Joe Thomas (aka Simon from The Inbetweeners) made a spectacularly low key entry at around 2 O’clock this afternoon. He shuffled up to the counter, mumbled his order and then quietly left. Only half way through serving did I clock on to why I recognized his face. But by this time it was too late and he was half way up the stairs to our first floor seating area.
“Well fuck that,” I thought. (I’m a fan of The Inbetweeners, if not religiously so. I think it’s a witty and sometimes painfully accurate and awkward slice of probably one of the most uncomfortable times of any mans life, the ages of 16 to 18) I’m not going to let someone of minor celebrity status slip through my hands like I’ve let the rest life’s opportunities. I’m not going sit by and watch as a small slice of show business escapes my day, which, up to that point, had been as stimulating as chewing on a doorknob. I’m going to grab the bull by the horns and take charge of this situation.
So I went upstairs to clean some tables. I was quite nervous as I picked up the empty cups on his table as I’d never talked to someone of the TV before, although I had once held open the cinema door for Rory McGrath (but that’s another, entirely uninteresting, story all together). But it was now or never. I was going to do it. I had built up the courage and I let rip.
“Hey man,” I said, my voice reasonably casual and controlled. “Are you in the Inbetweeners?” He said he was. I said I liked the show. He said thanks. There was a long, awkward silence in which I suspect both of us wished I had never started this conversation. After a while I asked him if they were making anymore. He said there was a new series in March. I said that I was looking forward to it. He said thanks again. We stopped talking.
And that was it. As I walked down the stairs back to my post I realized that celebrities really weren’t that interesting and talking to one is sort of like trying to chat up an attractive girl who you’ve relentlessly facebook stalked but barely understands that you exist. All the praise if one way and they just looked confused and uncomfortable.
Next time someone famous comes in I’m just going to mess up their order and avoid making eye contact with them, just like I do for everyone else.

My Fellow Comrades.

One thing I haven’t mentioned yet is the people I work with. This is because, on the whole, I quite enjoy the people I work with. We share the same mutual contempt for the general public and use it as a bonding experience. While some companies lavish their employees with leisurely team building exercises - spending a cold, muddy weekend in Thetford forest getting bruised by paintballs from that asshole from IT who stole your girlfriend instead of spending your day off having a lie in and watching TV – our work force bonds over devising fictitious, violent torture devises for people that order soya milk. It’s kind of like the Saw films but all the victims are lactose intolerant.
Yes, amazing as it is, there is one thing I like about my work and that’s my fellow employees. We’re an odd bunch; comprised of post graduates with liberal arts degrees (courses in Photography, Philosophy or Film may as well teach you how to make Mochas or flip burgers because that’s all it’s going to get you in life), a Pole and a Czech over here practicing their English and praying a favourable exchange rate will return, a couple of “How in the hell did I end up here” cases and a Cage Fighter. Together we shoot the shit so as to avoid shooting the customers.
However even though I get on with them all it’s almost impossible to get a chance to get to know any of them. Conversations last the briefest of time before they are swept up in another wave of customers getting itchy fingers from caffeine deprivation. The company makes sure the barest minimum of baristas are working for each particular time of day so that we will always be slightly overwhelmed by our duties. If at any time there seems to be a moment in the day, perhaps a lull of customers, and we have time to relax and catch our breaths, then the company will reassess the rota and try and work out where hours can be removed so as to prevent its employees from reaching eupnea. Breathing takes time and time is money.
This is how we’re kept in line. We’re pummeled to edge of exhaustion and punished if can handle it with time to spare. Oh well, could be worse. I could be in Thetford.

The underlying anger in us all rears its ugly head.

It was a Tuesday afternoon. I was working, doing my simplistic job that could be done by any creature with vertebra: Take order. Make order. Dispense order to customer. Take money. Repeat.
Repeat.
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Repeat.
It was much like any other Tuesday afternoon without a hint of discomfort in the air (apart from the usual nagging feeling that everyone who has worked for a major coffee franchise has on a regular basis that your life is being whittled away minute by minute). Due to my general apathy for my job, a line was building up steady, at least seven or eight people long. The line was the usual mix of customers. There were students, with their gentile chit chat about seminars and exams. There were radically obsessive tourists who needed to document the most trivial examples of “Englishness” with their overly expensive cameras. The usually post-work white collar workers, eager to get their latte’s before having to return home and complete all the paperwork that inevitably eluded them during their 9-5 shift. Basically the usual slack jawed faces I’ve come to despise.
The incident took place as one of the office slaves approached the front of the queue. He was proceeded by a tender old lady and a young, blonde student. As our balding office anti-hero took a look around the shop, the student in front took off her jumper and revealed another, different coloured t-shirt.
Our balding, uptight office anti-hero did not see this action and, seeing a different coloured top in front of him, assumed that someone had jumped the queue.
“Excuse me,” he said to the girl, “But I believe you jumped the queue.” There was no hint of menace of malice in his voice. It was balanced and under control.
The girl turned around in surprise and politely told him that she had been here all the time.
His left eye began to twitch. “No. You weren’t.” He turned to me. “Excuse me, but this girl just pushed in front of me.”
In my politest, if-my-boss-didn’t-force-me-to-wear-this-smile-i-would-have-spat-in-your-face smile, I said, “No sir. She’s next in the queue.”
The twitch turned into a tremor, the tectonic plates of his skull started to grind up against each other. His voice started to rise. “I’ve been waiting here for fifteen minutes and I don’t expect someone to jump in front of me.”
The girl was clearly not used to this sort of confrontation. Her voice and demeanor suggested that she was raised somewhere in which violent conflict did not generally take place unless it was a gang of hounds tearing apart a fox. Human violence was as strange and foreign to this girl as shopping at Asda. However, impressively, she stood her ground and refused to budge.
Once again, sensing some sort of human carnival was about to unfold, I said that she had not jumped the queue and he would have to wait to be served.
It was the final straw. The pressure had built up too much. The tremors turned into a full blown earthquake and the epicenter was his mouth.
“THAT’S PATHETICS. THAT’S JUST FUCKING TYPICALLY PATHETIC.” The anger was directed at the girl not myself. “YOU’RE A FUCKING PATHETIC JOKE.”
Everyone in the coffee shop stared at him, mouths gaping in disbelief. The girl was positively broken. Hunched and scared, tears started to run down her face.
I had had a feeling something was coming but I had never anticipated that the final quake was going to be of such a high magnitude. I was taken a back just like everyone else. The thought process was probably the same for everyone: “Isn’t this is pleasant Britain, where everyone is quietly polite?” Perhaps you expect this level of verbal abuse of a Saturday night in a city centre, with pissed up revelers voicing their opinions before smashing pint glasses over each others heads, but a Tuesday afternoon in a high street coffee shop? How very inappropriate.
I finally composed myself and managed the rather feeble, “I think it’s best if you leave, sir.” (notice how it is not a command but a suggestion and I still use the formal address of sir. God, I’m pathetically British). The man stormed out leaving in his wake stunned customers and a sobbing girl. I gave the girl her coffee for free and later, when the queue had died down, went up to check on her. The tears had stopped but she was still visibly shaken. There was not much else I could do but justify that the guy was probably a mentalist.
This is just one example of the unhealthy suppression of feelings that we bottle up for too long as we are swept along in uncomfortable masses, doing jobs we hate for people we despise. People have a breaking point. It seems that British people’s breaking point harder than most peoples to reach. But when they do it’s a spectacularly horrific. It’s a good thing we don’t all have guns.

So I totally fell in love today

I was at work when this really amazing look girl came in. She wasn't boner inducing, super model hawt with big boobs, flowing blond hair and a cleavage that would slam your head through your ball sack.
Instead she was quietly attractive, with dark brown hair in a pony tail and a slightly bookish looking face with large brown eyes and the most comforting and relaxing smile in the world.

You know the sort of girl I'm talking about.

The sort of girl that you could totally imagine spending lazy summer days with, lying on a picnic blanket on a meadow down by the river, just content with the sounds of the birds in the air and the security of each others company. The sort of girl that you would take you to art galleries and try to make you reach your full potential because she recognizes that you're slightly under achieving in life and not motivated enough. And you go to the art galleries because you love her and respect her opinions but your act bored and above it all (but you're still secretly impressed with the painting and shit even if you don't appreciate it on the same level as her). Then, to repay her, you watch Godfather 1 & 2 together on a dark, winters night, huddled up on the sofa together in front of a nice warm fire, and she watches them because she loves you and she respects your opinions but she acts all bored and above it all (but you know she secretly is impressed even if she doesn't appreciate it on the same level as you). Then you have a playful argument in which you discuss who has had more cultural significance on the world, Rembrandt or Francis Ford Coppola, and the argument ends in you both in the bed room where you proceed to have intimate, loving and comfortable sex that doesn't need to be outrageous or dangerous for it to be magical. And then after you're both spent you cuddle, basking in the pleasurable feedback from each others bodies. However after a while she lets go because she understands you need your space to be able to sleep comfortably and you proceed to fall into a deep slumber, content in the knowledge that you have someone that truly loves you.

You know the sort of girl I'm talking about.

Anyway, this girl came into the shop and I served her and fell in love with her. She sat down and while she was sipping on her Latte every now and again I glanced over at her and sometimes she would be looking at me and we would make momentary eye contact before one of us got embarrassed and turned away.
Then, when she was leaving, I smiled at her and said goodbye but she didn't look at me nor respond and instead kept on walking like she had blinkers on.
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That's when I realised how desperately alone I am.

tl/dr: I'm a sad sack of shit with an over active imagination and a pathetically romantic disposition.

Welcome to Coffeeshop Blues

Ah. Coffeeshops. Inhabited by the terminally wired, the gawkingly stupid, the perpetually impatient and the remorselessly picky. Run by the compulsively underachieving. Owned by the morally vacuous.

Yes, the Coffeeshop truly is the bane of human achievement. The sort of place that people believe is a cosy little hideaway from the real world, where they can relax and revel with their follow compatriates as if they were the cast of a popular 90s sitcom. But the reality of this quaint ideal is no match for the often brutal and despicable reality that lies behind the charade. And I'm here to blow the lid of the whole affair. I’m like Deepthroat without the silly, pornographic name.

Because, sad as it is, I work in one.

I'm the guy that gets called up at 6 in the morning on his day off because someone has been called in sick but is too spineless to mount any sort of argument and comes in tired and grumpy. I'm that guy that addresses you in a sleep deprived daze, glaring loathingly at you as you order your Soya Latte, and handing you one made with semi skimmed milk, not entirely sure himself if it was because he deliberately wants to annoy you or if he's just too damn stupid to remember an order placed two minutes previously. I'm the guy that is well educated enough to get a job much better than what he has but is so under ambitious that he stumbled into the first apron he came across and never bothered moving on, no matter how many friends, relatives or chimpanzees started to move up the career ladder. I have no girlfriend, no social life, no where to go and this is my story. I promise it wont be too emo.

Please Note: I won’t mention which coffee shop I work for but I can assure you it is one of the major chains. All the names and locations will also be changed as to protect the innocent and the simple minded.